hi it's been (checks watch) uh nevermind, anyway

i've been living the slow life for a bit and i've completely stopped trying with modern social media. i always liked the vibe of newgrounds, especially during that little kick-off it had in popularity, and it's not like i don't like this place. but with the advent of ai art hysteria i constantly feel torn if i should post anything at all. like i don't really care that much - if i did, i should have stopped making art already. if the point was just making a pretty image the point was defeated even before all this techbro garbage reached the public. but, on the other hand, i don't want my junk fed right into it willingly and newgrounds is a big pitstop for google to index. and then all my old art on display... it's not the worst but uh, no thank you

i told myself about this time last year i would do some soul searching about it, and then kind of figure it out in some grand epiphany. but i still haven't really. i've been dealing with bad burnout (not just art burnout but life burnout. the only thing i can do is art nowadays actually). it's like recovering from an injury where you just don't do anything for a long time, and slowly build the muscle back up... but i also have to work and take ten steps back everyday though. so honestly, i'm not high priority on making art for other people to see. i haven't for a while. i have one more zine i'm participating in this year but i'm still not even sure if i'll post it here. it would be perfect considering i haven't posted anything in a while, but the site it'll be on won't be crawled and indexed. so it's like... eh. a really big deterrent for me to even do it.

the more time goes on the less i want to have an internet identity brand i've set up for myself and just be harder to find anyway. i've been making a gaudy horrible personal website, just doing life drawings, and i'm losing the point of even posting anything anywhere for strangers to see once and forget about. i've touched grass, you could say... but i'd also like to make art my second job, and newgrounds is a relatively great platform to get on that horse. or at least have a long-running portfolio that isn't uber professional. or... maybe that's a bad thing? who knows? not me. see, this gets complicated fast. you don't want to live in my brain. i'm actually about to go in for a diagnostic screening later this afternoon so we'll see if i get on adderall and it magically fixes it for the ten seconds it'll actually work.

anyways, if i don't ever come back, that is why. if i do come back... that is also why.

i think if i start making oil paintings again i will post those because digital drawings and sketches often feel lackluster to post on their own. i'm more interested in making janky web creations and maybe informational videos about my art processes and neither will have a home on this site, and that's fine. but when my site is live i'll post it here for sure

update: i did get the adderall and i was just joking AHHHHHHH

hello again! it's been a week and i definitely did not forget to post an update on my comic like i said i would two days ago. except i'm lying, and i totally did...

anyway, here's the first page! that's the main site. the profile page on the host is here.

here's the synopsis, in case you've already filled your quota on clicking links today:

"In a world where robots and humans coexist, the line is often blurred between the two. Now living alongside humanity, they begin their takeover - but not the violent uprisings you see on TV. Smarter, faster, and slightly less disposable than everyone else, these human-identical synthetics (called synths, for short) cause the jaded cop Milo Hayes to struggle even more in keeping his shitty government-appointed career with nowhere else to turn. When his department's chief suggests he looks into leads for the city's most notorious crime bosses, he's mortified. One of his suspects is a man he's knows - and fears - all too well.

Realizing he's now stuck between the two puppeteers of his life, he gets his friend and robotic roommate Phoebe to help him cut some strings."

if that sounds cool to you, please check it out! it would mean the work to me. it updates each saturday! this story is literally old enough to enroll in kindergarten and it's so cathartic to be able to truly bring it to life in my spare time.

i know the whole "cyberpunk" dystopian vibe it's giving off is somewhat overdone nowadays, but i'm definitely trying my best to and am proud to be subversive with it's story and tropes. it still has that social commentary aspect of a usual sci-fi dystopia but it's more focused on personable connections and the human (and adjacent) condition as well as world-building i've worked way too hard on to keep unique but still not overly convoluted.

i'm still working on some pieces and parts of it so there's a few issues i'm aware of and resolving around missing or odd looking content, but the site is still usable and everything i haven't polished isn't central to the comic. by the time you read this, most if not all of the issues i'm referring to might be resolved. still planning on posting on webtoon monthly as well as

and more comic-related news i didn't add to my last blog - i've been accepted for a zine with my co-writer and illustrator on most of my projects! more on that when it comes around, but it will be more oriented for the community on comicfury rather than here. still, if you're interested, i would love for you to check it out! the only thing i'll really say is that it's going to be a trippy mess with a psychedelic prompt and definitely not for anyone under the age of 18 due to adult themes.

also, as a footnote, happy early clock day on april fools!

okay so, first of all, hi, nice to see you again.

now to the point - it's been almost 2 years now and i didn't even really realize! i've been busy with life, life's been busy with me... basically, working 40(+) hours in retail sucks, moving is crazy, and being a little adult guy is exhausting. i almost quit doing any visual art about the time i stopped posting, so i focused on surviving and inadvertently soul searched my way back into it. i've done a lot of bits and pieces that maybe i'll share. i've got a lot that i want to eventually, but i've learned some things should just die with me - because holy shit, learning can be fugly.

anyways, big news about my art more than me - i'm starting up a comic! no, it's not this unfortunately, but it's an entirely original story i've been writing with my cowriter for about 2 years off and on. i first started writing it almost 6 years ago though (holy shit how was a year in the 2010s more than half a decade ago what is going on)! most of my art here is actually of the characters, at least these original concept designs.

i've always wanted to, but lacked the skill to not work on something for waaaay too long... I am still learning to make something in a timely manner, but so far has been good enough. next saturday is when i'm releasing the first page on comicfury, and in about a month from then, there will be a formatted version on webtoon. because i know like, two people who actually use webtoon.

should i release pages here, or only post the coolest looking ones or chapter covers? i'm thinking of going with the latter because my art uploads will be absolutely CLOGGED with pages but i don't really know. let me know what you think! i will be making a different blog post making it the shining star of the point once saturday rolls around. if you're so inclined, you can be the first to see it by subscribing on comicfury.

before i go, i wanted to ask some ending questions - how are you doing? anything interesting going on in your world right now? i want to connect with folks again so go ahead and talk my ear off. i'm not all ears, because frankly, that would be really disturbing. but, as i put on all my copy and pasted resumes, i'm an amazing listener. i also have a great sense of urgency and basic english competency.

have a great day! i hope i could make my unfiltered stream of conciousness at least a bit entertaining. more than anything i just wanted to say hello before getting back into the swing of things.

hi friends, good to see you! there's a lot of new ones around from my newest pieces, featured in milkbarjack's pico clicker. thank you so much for coming by - and deciding to stay! you're awesome.

and yes, i'm still active, despite the fact my last piece was forever ago... between graduation and corona, i've been struggling. but that doesn't mean i haven't been working! just... not on visual art... oops. anyways, i'm planning on uploading more, and actually starting my ~bigger project~ that i've abandoned since life swooped in and fucked me over.

tldr; it's nice to see you, fans make me happy

and as a bonus for making it this far, here's my pico clicker entries in their transparent glory: